Lately I’ve been feeling some very low self esteem. Maybe I’m not getting enough sleep or maybe I’m drinking too much caffeine which is making me sensitive but it’s very apparent that something in my life needs to change.
This is an emotion I’m pretty familiar with. I’m average looking and at least twice a week my weight will fluctuate and it turns my world completely upside down. The self esteem issues don’t just come down to my appearance, however they seem to center more around my whole life in general. Last week one of my closest friends graduated from college as an accounting major and while I am so floored that he had the ability to do so and is starting his life out in the real world, it has made me feel jealous and insecure about my life plan. I don’t have one at the moment and I’ve been in school for 3 years now.in fact, I’m still trying to figure out how to pay my tuition for last semester.
Why does it feel like everyone around you has their life figured out? There are people who do yoga every morning, are working on 2 masters degrees, eat vegan and still manage to do their hair every morning. I can barely remember to wash mine much less wake up early enough to throw in a yoga class. Lately it feels crippling trying to figure out where my life is going. I feel lost and down about myself because I have no plan.
Money has been a huge part of this as well. I want nothing more than to go on a date night with my husband or buy a new swimsuit for my vacation next month but I feel as though every penny not spent on bills is a huge waste. In reality it probably is but I also want to go out and have a little fun every once in awhile. Not to mention that I absolutely love Christmas shopping for other people and if I had the money I would buy everyone I love their own private island. Alas, I make a baristas wage which is no where close to owning private island timeshares.
All of these things combined make me feel as though I am not enough. I feel like I’m trying my best but my best is never going to be good enough. Maybe this is because humans have a natural instinct to want to be better or maybe I’m just surrounded my really awesome people. Either way, I need to make a positive change in my life. How though? I could wake up every morning and tell myself how awesome I am. I could find a way to make money on the side, I could start waking up a little earlier and take care of myself but something’s are easier said than done.
This happens to people all the time. They say “from here on out I’m going to…” sometimes this works out but a lot of the time, your new outlook on life can fade away and you relapse into your old self. How do we change this? We set goals of course. This is a technique I learned in my Zumba class last semester that changed my outlook on goal setting. So here is the way to do it: Start every week with a new goal to improve yourself. For example, “This week I will not spend unnecessary money” and once you have mastered that goal, you will move on to the next. Make these goals small and obtainable and only make them one at a time. If you make several goals at a time it can feel overwhelming and that’s when you crash and burn and are back to square one. These goals can have a tendency to fade over time this is okay and natural but is no excuse to give up. When your goals do start to fade, set a similar goal but not the exact same one. If your goal was to go to the gym five times a week but you fell out of it, start with something similar but just as obtainable. Instead set the goal to go on three runs a week and do at least 2 strength workouts to pair with it. The reason I suggest to not set the same goal is because you are always changing and growing and so should your goals. You are not the same person you were five minutes ago so why would you set goals for your past self? Thinking like this will improve the way you reach your goals and will change your outlook on failing too. You are going to fail sometimes, it’s just the way life is. Sometimes you get knocked on your ass and it’s hard to get back up but, learn from where you are and figure out where you want to be. On that note; don’t wait until the new year to become a better you. The new year is just a day and there’s no reason to procrastinate being better and happier in yourself.
I will start setting my weekly goals and I’ll even post about them on here for all of you to see! I’ll give you updates on my goals and how they are going and you can give me yours too. My goal I will be starting today is to read at least one finance book to better my understanding of money. What will your goal be? Leave a comment and we can go through this together because everyone knows we are stronger when we have a little support.
This week my car finally got fixed. Yay! Now I can drive without worrying about how my husband is going to make it home from work.
Also this week Jack, my siblings and I made homeade gingerbread houses and I made some awesome frosting to go along with them. The cats ended up licking them so we couldn’t really eat them after that but it was still super fun. Here are all of our houses lined up:
This week was a great one and I’m very thankful for the life I have and the people around me.
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Much love – Mady